Happy December Everyone!
It has been quite a while since my last blog and so much has changed in that period of time. 2019 has the ultimate year of change. Let me give you quick update.
First off, I quit my job! Yes, what was I thinking? I have no freaking idea! As many of you know, I have had a side business for years now. I am a freelance makeup artist and last year I also added lash extensions to the mix. After much discussion and occasional struggle, my husband encouraged me to follow my dreams and make this my full time job. I definitely thought I was ready and when I took the leap of faith, I was scared out of my mind. I didn’t want to fail. I had wanted this opportunity for so long. I wanted to be able to make my own schedule while doing what I loved. The other thing for me was I have NEVER left a job without having something else lined up or some kind of consistent income coming in. I AM A PLANNER PEOPLE! I literally always have a plan. This time I didn’t. SCARY! I am happy to say I spent my whole summer learning and practicing my butt off and it paid off. I am up and running a business people. I also have an awesome partner I work with everyday who not only encourages me but has taught me so much in the lash business to help me sustain a steady clientele. What more could I ask for?
Now that brings us to our next order of business. What more could I ask for? This question is such a joke to me. So I began my business and then I got the surprise of my life. Before we dive into that, let me give you some background. Last year (2018) was a year I will never forget. In my past blogs, I wrote about losing one of my childhood friends in a tragic accident and someone else within a few weeks of each other. What I didn’t tell you guys was that I was going through a miscarriage just weeks before losing my friend. It was the most heartbreaking time of my life. I am fine talking about it now because I have learned to cope in the past year. It isn’t something I would wish on my worst enemy. I figured I would share that with you because it is actually more common than anyone cares to talk about. I had huge support from my family and friends during that time. It just took me a really long time to heal from both deaths.
The doctor gave us a year and by the end of that year I was over it. I didn’t want to get tested anymore. Everything seemed like too much work and it was frustrating that everyone around me could sneeze and get pregnant but I was having such a rough time. So a few months went by. My husband had just dealt with his grandmother passing away and I was spending a ton of time with his family. 2 months go by and I’m not feeling like myself. SURPRISE again! I am pregnant! So I write this blog today, 8 months pregnant. Crazy, huh? It came when I least expected it. It has been a rollercoaster of emotions. I am happy but scared out of my mind. When you’ve lost a child already, everything scares you. Why aren’t they moving? Is this feeling normal? Why does this hurt? And it goes on and on. My doctors get a kick out of me because I always have a million questions that they’re always happy to answer.
So far that’s been why I am so busy! I have a lot I’m doing. But don’t miss me too much because I will be updating very soon. I have tons I want to dive into between makeup and life. This is will become a Mom Blog before you know it. I want to share this experience with you all. Even though I am already a bonus mom, having a newborn is going to be all new. I am going to have to figure out how to do a bunch of things now such as applying makeup while turning into a zombie. You know, all new mom things. Stay tuned for all the fun. I promise I will probably have you cracking up at what I am really thinking about mommy-hood.
As always, thank you all for sticking with me!